I've seen this verse in random places numerous times over the past few days. It was in a book I'm reading, it was in my devotional this morning, it has been popping up in my mind constantly. Apparently, God is telling me to not worry but instead come to Him.
I'm trying my best not to worry or be anxious, but I can't say I'm doing a great job at that. It is hard not to worry when so many things are still unknown. I've been praying for the peace that surpasses all understanding but don't feel like I'm quite there yet. I've been taking my requests to Him- praying that there are no chromosomal abnormalities, no complications or reasons for another miscarriage, that He would create in me a healthy little baby, that I would experience the normal pregnancy symptoms to help me know it is real, and that I would be able to carry this baby to full term. I know that others are praying for me as well, which is comforting.
I'm hoping that my anxiety and fears are lessened after my ultrasound and appointment on the 19th. However, I feel like that is years away from today. Ok... so it is really just 2 weeks from tomorrow, but I just so badly want to know that everything is going as it should. I'm terrified that I'm going to have the same issue as before, when I went in for my dating ultrasound and there was nothing in there to measure or date!
It is still pretty early for the onset of tons of pregnancy symptoms, but I do have to pee about every 5 seconds (although I'm terrified everytime I go to the bathroom that I'm going to see blood) and I'm pretty much exhausted most of the time. Crazy as it is, I'm hoping more symptoms appear in the next few weeks.
Well, that's it for today. Not much to post about since there have been no major changes. Hopefully it stays that way for a while :)
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